What my colors mean…

Try out this link. http://www.paulgoldinresearch.com/cg/ Its pretty cool.

 Here’s what it says about me.

At this particular time you are feeling the results of extreme stress and you are seeking a ‘way out’ but you are pushing too hard. Obviously you need peace, tranquillity and contentment. Your temperament is such that you are hoping, unrealistically perhaps, that your desires will shortly be fulfilled (even if at this time you are not quite sure what those true aspirations may be!).

Which ever way you turn you feel that you are being utterly thwarted. There is considerable conflict in the air but you will stick to your beliefs and not be deterred in endeavouring to attain your objectives.

You are a perfectionist in everything that you put your hand to. You are demanding and very exacting in the standards you apply to your choice of colleagues and friends -perhaps you demand too much from people. That perfection you seek in a particular person is illusive – perhaps it does not even exist.

You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it – you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.

You are inclined to be too trusting and you feel that you need to be on your guard against the possibility that your endeavours and actions may be misunderstood. Too often you have been taken advantage of and you have been mentally abused. Now you are seeking a relationship which can provide peace of mind, where you can be yourself and not have the need to put on a false front.

When you’re just so damn pissed about life…

 Warning: Offensive sentences below. Please read with caution and open-mindedness. Alter-ego talk.

Exams are around the corner. But I’m going to watch Spiderman. “Didn’t you say that you’re gonna study?” Yeah… what’s it gotta do with you?

You feel. But it always comes down to what you’re gonna choose. I’ve phantomed 3 types of choices. 1) The “I want to…” choice, 2) The “I should…” choice, 3) The “Dammit what choice do I have?!” choice.

Well… it figures why the bible implied that human wisdom is foolishness in the eyes of God. Well… probably even idiotic. why not just wisen up? Hey… why don’t you just shut up. Hmmm…. sounds like I’m listening to too much Eminem. Again… you always feel, but in the end you need to make a choice. You either choose foolishness, or you choose wisdom. Sitting on the fence? You gotta be kidding me… you like stuff poking up ur ***? Ok… its really getting judgemental now… Am I stressed? No idea… should I be stressed? Some people say “yes” some people say “relax lah”… hey… so what the hell am I supposed to feel here man? Stressed or no stress? Seriously… you gotta be kidding me. Telling me how I should feel? what i should do? how to live life? Man… isn’t this some irritating nonsense. Now I’m just being an ***hole ain’t I? Feel good? Satisfied? Pumped? So what’s the s**t with you man.

Don’t we all feel this way at some point of your life? This is the kinda stuff that kills my brain cells. Its also probably why people turn to Jesus for some love. I was just listening to some christian songs this morning on my way to church. I hadn’t gone for service for over a month. Spiritually dry? Hell yeah. Loss of faith? blah blah blah…. how do you feel? well pretty sh**ty if you ask me. Man… have I gotten awfully rude and irritated by His voice.

Was listening to a sermon the other day… You gotta have a strong prayer life. You gotta pray. Cos prayer opens the door for God to allow His supernatural glory to make a difference in your life.

So… must be really tough being “non-christian”… no supernatural glory… no door open to heaven… no holy spirit… life of sin and strife and misery…

And you know… when you’re feeling miserable and moody… and someone absolutely perky and cheerful comes up to you and says “Well what a wonderful day it is!”… you just really feel like strangling that neck that’s producing that chirpy voice.

Seriously… stop feeling miserable and start doing something. Endless whining’s not gonna get you out of the sorry state that you’re in. You gotta do something if you’re unhappy and sad and miserable. Not doing anything just sucks the life out of everyone else especially yourself.

We always feel… but happiness doesn’t just drop down from the sky onto our lap. We have to do something. We have to give something. Some effort. So we gotta make a choice. A choice to do something or nothing. At least something. Don’t live a life as though as it was nothing… start from scratch. I’ll be there… and God will always be there. Someone will always be there.

Life isn’t worthless… its priceless.

My 2 cents on the PSP

Alright. I may seem unwilling. But if you wanna get the PSP… don’t just step into a shop and buy it. Because seriously… you really got to think about what this baby can do, else regrets may wash up your shore when you find out more facts.

Well, obviously the first question you’d probably ask is… How much? Then again… for people who’re more thrifty would think “do I need it?”… k such pple can read other things besides this entry cos you might just “need” it after you find out what it can do. Anyway… the last time I checked, the original PSP from Sony Gallery comes up to about S$300+ I think. Well… if you’re gonna get that, u basically get 1 PSP with a charger and a 1 year warranty from Sony. Other local retail outlets sell this a lot cheaper. As low as $270… any lower probably need some lobang. But, retail outlets don’t normally hand out the warranty cards (explains the low price).

Alright. Here’s what you can do with a PSP.

1) Play PSP UMD games (duh) ; they cost about S$70 per game

2) Listen to MP3s

3) Watch MP4s, (videos basically) ; you’ll need some software to do convert VCDs/DVDs to MP4 format

4) Personalize and customize <— this one’s the key attraction

5) Surf the Net (its got WIFI)

6) Game sharing. (play with your fren who also has one)

7) Sell it if you get sick of it.

Use it as bait for thieves.

Ok seriously, u don’t really use it for 5) or 8).

Tips when buying:

a) don’t expect a memory card+usb cable+screen protector+protective case for less than 300 bucks. Unless its a real cheap 2nd hand buy.

b) If you are not gonna use the PSP for homebrew (custom firmware; i.e. modified to play downloaded games) or movies/mp3s, don’t bother getting a memory card.

c) If you are gonna use it for homebrew, mp3/videos… get no less than a 2 GB high speed memory stick pro duo. Sandisks are faster and more expensive. If your memory stick isn’t “High Speed”, your ISO games (the game files you downloaded) will load at a much slower rate, AND THE GAME MAY LAG.

d) don’t expect Sony to repair your PSP if you modified it to play homebrew. Its as good as a brick if its spoilt. If that happens, u have no choice but to bring it to a local shop that knows how to repair it. Yes they will charge you for repair.

e) Screen protectors cost above 10 bucks. (Yes that damn piece of plastic is specially engineered)

f) Modified PSPs (versions 3.03 OE and above) are sold at a higher price.

g) the PSP has to be a 1.5 version before its able to run custom firmware, which is able to run homebrew (ps1 games, iso games, emulators)

h) if you have old PS1 game cds you can convert them to ISO files to play on your PSP. You need to use a software called “Autopopstation” to convert the CD into an ISO file to play it on the PSP.

i) if you want everything modified and ready to play, expect to spend up to 400 bucks. 500 to be on the safe side.

j) Be VERY CAREFUL if you are modifying the PSP on your own. Read up more on the hardware compatibility before you do anything stupid like bricking your $300 PSP. I doubt the ones bought from Sony Gallery are modifiable.

k) The USB cable doesn’t come with the PSP. Unless you already have one, you got to buy it seperately unless you have a Memory Stick card reader.

l) This one’s pretty important/obvious. You must install custom firmware to run PS1 games/emulators, else you have to get a PS3 to buy the games online from sony and upload to your PSP through your PS3. To run custom firmware, you need to have a 1.5 version, which Sony doesn’t produce anymore. You gotta get them from local shops.

For a much more detailed and informative guide go to this website.

http://pspupdates.qj.net/

*Disclaimer: The writer is not liable for any loss incurred by the reader who relied on this article. Interested parties are strongly recommended to read more reliable sources before attempting his/her purchase. As this entry is dated in Apr 2007, it is likely that new information would come out later so please do your own research before buying. 

My first Real Sukiyaki

Located at Taman Jurong, just beside Sheng Shiong supermarket… lies this authentic looking signboard. Screaming out the Japanese occupation…. and behold… Beef Sukiyaki. Yes… its fresh, its hot, and its the real deal. $25++ for this monstrous pot of bubbling blend of sukiyaki broth. You boil. You dump. It bubbles. You burn your tongue. Dump it in raw egg to cool it off. You slurp. And you say… “Holy Cow.” Yeap literally man. I’ve never had anything like it. It confounds the nerves when the heat bites into the tongue, the savory broth itches and triggers desire. You yearn, you squirm… you feel… warmth.

Here’s a preview.

Damn good. =p

And I lay my head back down….

watched this for the first time a few weeks back… really simple… really light… really soft… I watched it like 3 times. wonder how come I missed it such a long time ago. Must’ve been too busy as usual.

This one right here… replaced The Matrix as my fav. I remember when I watched it the first time, it was just simply brilliant… and its still brilliant the 2nd and the 3rd time…. ok… gotta wait a long while before it can be brilliant the 4th time.

Work seems to have gotten better. Not as much fire fighting as before. Studies are progressing… moving forward. Pace is manageable. Complicating matters simplified.

Realized that some customers are plain lazy… don’t even know whether they placed an order or not, don’t even know what order they placed, don’t even know what they want, and want us to know what they want… patience is a virtue indeed… prevents agitation and irritation. Doing an operations job has been fulfilling nonetheless.

So what’s next… another day, another meal, another conversation, another blog, another email… or… $10,000 at the end of the year, a better job, a better paycheck, a better relationship, a better friendship, a better attitude… so… what’s next for you ladies and gentlemen?

Operation Blizzard…… Engaged.

FLOOD

Rain, rain on my face
It hasn’t stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

Chorus:
But if I cant swim after forty days
And my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up – when Im falling
Lift me up – Im weak and Im dying
Lift me up – I need you to hold me
Lift me up – keep me from drowning again

Downpour on my soul
Splashing in the ocean, Im losing control
Dark sky all around
I cant feel my feet touching the ground

[chorus]

Calm the storms that drench my eyes
Dry the streams still flowing
Cast down all the waves of sin
And guilt that overthrow me

[chorus]

Lift me up – when Im falling
Lift me up – Im weak and Im dying
Lift me up – I need you to hold me
Lift me up – keep me from drowning again

- Jars of Clay