When you’re just so damn pissed about life…

 Warning: Offensive sentences below. Please read with caution and open-mindedness. Alter-ego talk.

Exams are around the corner. But I’m going to watch Spiderman. “Didn’t you say that you’re gonna study?” Yeah… what’s it gotta do with you?

You feel. But it always comes down to what you’re gonna choose. I’ve phantomed 3 types of choices. 1) The “I want to…” choice, 2) The “I should…” choice, 3) The “Dammit what choice do I have?!” choice.

Well… it figures why the bible implied that human wisdom is foolishness in the eyes of God. Well… probably even idiotic. why not just wisen up? Hey… why don’t you just shut up. Hmmm…. sounds like I’m listening to too much Eminem. Again… you always feel, but in the end you need to make a choice. You either choose foolishness, or you choose wisdom. Sitting on the fence? You gotta be kidding me… you like stuff poking up ur ***? Ok… its really getting judgemental now… Am I stressed? No idea… should I be stressed? Some people say “yes” some people say “relax lah”… hey… so what the hell am I supposed to feel here man? Stressed or no stress? Seriously… you gotta be kidding me. Telling me how I should feel? what i should do? how to live life? Man… isn’t this some irritating nonsense. Now I’m just being an ***hole ain’t I? Feel good? Satisfied? Pumped? So what’s the s**t with you man.

Don’t we all feel this way at some point of your life? This is the kinda stuff that kills my brain cells. Its also probably why people turn to Jesus for some love. I was just listening to some christian songs this morning on my way to church. I hadn’t gone for service for over a month. Spiritually dry? Hell yeah. Loss of faith? blah blah blah…. how do you feel? well pretty sh**ty if you ask me. Man… have I gotten awfully rude and irritated by His voice.

Was listening to a sermon the other day… You gotta have a strong prayer life. You gotta pray. Cos prayer opens the door for God to allow His supernatural glory to make a difference in your life.

So… must be really tough being “non-christian”… no supernatural glory… no door open to heaven… no holy spirit… life of sin and strife and misery…

And you know… when you’re feeling miserable and moody… and someone absolutely perky and cheerful comes up to you and says “Well what a wonderful day it is!”… you just really feel like strangling that neck that’s producing that chirpy voice.

Seriously… stop feeling miserable and start doing something. Endless whining’s not gonna get you out of the sorry state that you’re in. You gotta do something if you’re unhappy and sad and miserable. Not doing anything just sucks the life out of everyone else especially yourself.

We always feel… but happiness doesn’t just drop down from the sky onto our lap. We have to do something. We have to give something. Some effort. So we gotta make a choice. A choice to do something or nothing. At least something. Don’t live a life as though as it was nothing… start from scratch. I’ll be there… and God will always be there. Someone will always be there.

Life isn’t worthless… its priceless.