I dropped my iPod.

Yes. The one that I won 1st prize in my company lucky draw during Christmas about 2 years back…

Its really sad. But I must admit I’ve not been anal enough about protecting my iPod. Apparently the silicon casing that you see still on, wasn’t enough protection to withstand a 5 foot drop from my chest (hooked on a lanyard). I was shopping for groceries to cook this weekend for friends and family. I was just reaching down to pick up some paprika from the herbs section at NTUC, which was immensely crowded as usual on Friday nights. And I was “wearing” my iPod using a lanyard like I always do, hooked and dangling. As I stood up, it caught the trolley handle, snapped off and just hit the floor. As anyone would say… “shit…” followed by a heavy sigh… did all of that… Apparently a $20 silicone casing doesn’t prevent LCD leakage if dropped. On the bright side. It still works fine. Just pray that the leakage doesn’t spread across the screen.

Thankfully was not bothered by it too much. Got home to marinate the boneless chicken legs. Spent an entire hour marinating the meat (bought 2 kg frozen legs). This one is different from last week’s marinade. By the time I was done it was 12 am and I felt like puking. Too much rawness…

Felt better the next morning. Chicken has marinated overnight. So did a trial run for brunch. Very low fire, skin down, lid on for about 12 mins… vuala…

Skin was nice and crisp and the meat was succulent. Mum thoroughly enjoyed it too. Its actually very nice, but I realized that dried rosemary, oregano and basil was definitely secondary to the original fresh versions you see on Jamie Oliver. The ones I did at RN’s place didn’t have that crispyness on the skin. The wok, stove fire, and lid were all completely different from what I use at home. Plus I could not recreate the sauce I did last sunday because Campbell mushroom soup wasn’t part of the menu (now you know how I make my sauce). RN helped to solve my sauce problem while I was almost unsuccessful trying out Lee Kum Kee black pepper sauce. Cooked for RN and KM only because I wasn’t that hungry, and got a little sick of my own cooking.

After dinner at RNs place, went to east coast together with KM and RN to try out some very good home made ice cream at east coast. Its actually at the ground floor of a condominium named Ocean Park. I must say damn good because I thought it was better than Ben and Jerrys. Ordered mint and chocolate. And the cool thing was they had those “freeze stoves” like the one at Yuki Yaki where you make your own ice cream. They also had lots of topping/mixing choices. I mixed both my chosen flavors with oreos… and it just blew me away.

KM was really tired so sent him back first, then went with RN to ABC Brickworks food centre to have my dinner. Was walking around and came across the aroma of something that I’ve wanted to eat weeks ago…

Authentic claypot rice. woo hoo… God is good. To think we had no idea where to go for dinner after sending KM back. RN was still full and as always, its not easy to think of what to eat at times.  But when this baby arrived at our table… RN simply said “Ok now I’m hungry!” LP lived in the neighbourhood so came down to join us. Thankfully he didn’t want to eat claypot rice… hahaha. I mean… this dish was just fantastic… chicken was nice and tender, perfect blend of sauces… kiam hir (salted fish), and lap chiong (chinese sausages)…. woooot… it was damn satisfying.

Thinking of what I wanna try cooking next weekend. Already done meats… how about some fish… hmm… thinking salmon and cod. Not easy to do nice fish… also thought of doing vongole… also craving for Riciotti at the Riverwalk. Need to learn how to use paprika too… seems like a very nice spice to use but can go wrong if the combinations aren’t right.

How on earth did he do that?

Insanely talented beatboxing. Enjoy.

*Gawking

A single’s week…

The week went by as though I’d gone into hyperspace, with a lot of things happening everyday…

Sunday: Discovered new sauce recipe for chicken chop. Also discovered new method of ensuring the skin on the chicken chop is crisp and irresistable.

Monday: Our supplier in UK short shipped radioactive goods to us (without informing us as usual), luckily the customers were very nice and didn’t scold us or force any impossible requests.

Tuesday:  Our supplier for chillers screwed up and almost didn’t deliver on schedule. Its part of a big instrument package deal with the company’s image at stake. Basically the biggest single invoice I have ever billed. I already made arrangements for them to deliver on this day 3 weeks ago, and still reminded them last week to confirm delivery on this date/time/location. On the day itself, called them to find out that they didn’t plan it, and wanted to deliver the next day, giving the excuse that they thought I will call them to reconfirm again, which is ridiculous because I don’t see why I have to double confirm so many times. Spent an entire hour alternating phone calls back and forth to get the chillers to the big customers. Each time we insisted, they tried to talk their way out of it, and to me it was rather unprofessional… they tried to handle the situation themselves, and I think they tried to keep the screw up from the management. I got really fired up, but I didn’t blast them, just told them firmly I’ll want to speak to the manager if they weren’t able to fulfill our arrangement that I confirmed twice. After putting the pressure on them, they called back their delivery contractors to pick up and deliver immediately. Frankly, as a supplier myself, I know that such last minute requests are very inefficient, and nobody likes to do them. I felt for them, yet, I wasn’t the least happy that they tried to evade their mistake and hung up on me twice on the phone. So rude.

That itself already made a bad morning, but then another supplier who wanted to send frozen samples to us repeated the same mistake a week ago when they wrongly declared the address on the proforma invoice… have already told them its not necessary to put customs clearing agent’s address if they’re already going via Fedex. Plus other interrupting requests and phone calls in between the chaos was just irritating and my colleagues could clearly hear my moaning and frustration.

Felt a lot better when the morning ordeal was over and it was lunchtime. Back to normal in the afternoon. Went for MSM class after work.

Wednesday: General manager was in for the week so had lunchtime meeting in the office. Ordered packed Japanese bentos… chose the unagi with sushi. Meeting went fine. Couple of hours after the meeting had to lao sai… bad sushi. Craved Subway again, got a footlong Italian BMT for dinner+supper, went for POA class. Lecturer is the corniest one ever…

Thursday: First time having lunch in an Indian restaurant (Khansama). Service manager’s treat to 5 of us. Food is good… and was reminded of the high content of sugar, fat and cholestrol of Indian cuisine… but once in awhile is ok. After work, had dinner at Hog’s Breath Cafe with 3 of my closer colleagues, my ex-partner T who resigned also came. Had beers after dinner with my colleagues for the first time. Ate and drank a lot… Again… once in awhile is ok… lol

Friday: TGIF. Pretty much the highlight of the week. Half day at work. Medical appt in the afternoon for me. Morning session with my GM and sales manager, and broke the news I’ve been waiting for the past 2 years… FINALLY going to be accepted as permanent staff (has better benefits package). Was really glad to hear the news. Went to salon after the medical. Shiok.

Saturday: Searched fundsupermart.com to read up more on the investment stuff. Watched Evan Almighty and The Pursuit of Happyness. Went to RN’s place for mahjong. Seriously, I don’t really play money games since I “za hu” and ”bao” back during “O” level days (dunno how to play and still play money). However, today I ended up the biggest winner in total. Think around $14? =p I’ll bet RN and FS looking for revenge very soon… esp FS… heh.. well at least LP and I treated them to supper at Al Azhar. Oh yes… and a lot of R21 content. FS came back from business trip from Vietnam and Philippines… started to talk abt red light district and stuff, then talk about Geylang… like those pros will come up and whisper dirty things like “shuai ge, yao bu yao chui ah?”, “lai mah, 3 ge ren wo gen ni da zhe”… and us guys just kept repeating that crap over and over again each turn during the game… hilarious…

Sunday: Just chill at home, and blog… Liverpool drew 0-0 again… *faint* but Arsenal… woo hoo… 5-0 against Derby. I keep watching the wrong games man. My credit card application rejected… but new account with Citibank setup and got me first chequebook (bloody sua ku).

Its a nice week.

A single’s weekend…

The past week of work has been a little more daunting as my helper went for a holiday in HK (with her bf) awww… but nevertheless as the week ended, turned out rather nice on friday as it was my colleague’s birthday… so the 4 of us drove down to IMM for lunch at Ajisen. Its really been awhile since I’ve been there, and it was really nice to have this bowl of thick soup and chewy ramen again.

As our office supplies were running short, we decided to take the opportunity to shop for supplies at Giant at the other corner of IMM. For a guy… I’m considered lucky to be in the company of young female colleagues who are older than me. =p

I never knew shopping with 3 ladies would be so insane… 

 

like that call insane meh? no lor…… this is even more power…

The entire trolley was filled passed the brim, with what I would say a ton of junk food. First it was packs and packs of tetra packed drinks of various flavors, lotsa types of biscuits, a couple of Cheezels fun packs (my personal fav), a lot of instant noodles, instant milo, coffee, tea… ah whatever… the good thing was we got what we wanted. Reached the office damn late of course, boss asked as expected lah… but in the past we used to order online via cold storage and the variety was extremely limited… not to mention expensive. We actually saved a lot more and got much better stuff. 

Woke up rather early in this Saturday morning and caught Larry King Live on CNN… then chatted with W online and discovered she’d been up for 13 hours straight past the wee hours just to help her friends with a theatre make-up plan. It sounded much more disdainful when I found out that she was informed at the extreme last minute yesterday, with the actual play commencing TODAY!! *faint* She was completely gutted, yet could not possibly refuse to help either… its those kinda situations where you get dragged into something you were never part of… and I would never want to be in those types of circumstances. I mean she got the tickets to WATCH the play… not actually like help backstage?? big sigh… could have done much better planning than that…

Speaking of plans… I didn’t really know what to do this weekend… so I brought out my cues and went to Taka to get my new wallet. Smsed JL and ML to find out they weren’t free for a game… and kinda got stuck as to what to do. Then thought why not do some cooking… so spent the remaining $50 voucher at Cold Storage. Got 2 raw ribeye steaks, nice and pink, 3 fresh chicken legs deboned (for chicken chop), a pack of white button mushrooms, a pack of “golden” mushrooms (the long straw like type), some high grade smoked bacon, and couldn’t believe that they didn’t sell Ben & Jerry’s ice cream and ended up getting Cornettos. $51.85. Smack on budget.

Got on a cab to rush back to marinate the meats, called parents beforehand but they couldn’t confirm if they were coming back for dinner, so just prepared only for my bro and I.

First up was the ribeye (for mua)… looked absolutely gorgeous. Rubbed in a generous amount of salt on both sides, freaked out when there wasn’t enough coarse black pepper remaining… dug the cabinets and discovered Szechuan pepper… and boy it smelled really spicy… but the fragrance was perfect, so just put a few dashes of that. Next key part was red wine… dug the cabinets again to find a 2001 Cabernet Merlot… woo hoo… made a whole mess trying to uncork it, but managed to get a few splashes of that onto the meat. That’s it. Doesn’t seem like much… but I love food that’s made simple and you get the natural flavours of the meat which is just fantastic.

For my bro it was chicken… and the marinate was just as simple. About a teaspoon of oyster sauce, some teriyaki sauce, few drops of sesame oil for fragrance, and some coarse brown sugar to increase the savory flavor. I might be more adventurous if I had more herbs and sauces but that was really all my mum kept in stock.

Both meats marinated for about an hour while I was watching tv. Got back to the kitchen and took out the strawlike mushrooms and bacon. Chopped off the roots (contained remaining soil) washed it, and wrapped bunches of it with bacon. This was just gonna be the side dish with the main course. So really simple… smoking hot pan and sauteed the bacon wrapped mushrooms till the bacon fat melts retaining a crispy exterior. By the time I was done, my kitchen was filled with smoke. Side dish done.

With the bacon fat and juices from the mushroom in the pan, I just dumped the marinated steak in. The result was the biggest and highest flambé in my kitchen’s history (from my waist up to my head). It took over a minute for the alcohol to fully vaporize, and luckily I was quick enough to turn the steak to its other side cos clearly the initial side was charring… I got really worried but thankfully it wasn’t overcooked. After just another minute or so, steak was done and I brought it out to the dining table to let the meat set for awhile.

Now with the juices from the steak, bacon and mushrooms, in went the chicken, skin downwards. Charred the skin a bit to make it crispy… by now… the kitchen looked as though we just extinguished a fire. Once the meat firmed up, off the stove. Dinner was done.

So now to taste… and I’ve never been more satisfied. The chicken wasn’t overcooked and it was very tender. My bro went “Wah…” and kept nodding. And the steak was almost a perfect medium doneness. Pinkish in the centre, very tender… and it was really sweet. The wine’s darn good. Bacon and mushrooms will never go wrong. Standard taste always good. My mum came out and tried the steak… and kept asking for more… hahaha… found that it tasted better than jack’s place (figured its the wine). Nothing tasted dry and I’d do it again if anyone would wanna try my cooking haha… its really enjoyable when you cook and pple say that its good. The last time someone commended was during a bbq with my colleagues… grilled the steaks for them. God I love beef… but honestly… I can’t cook many things other than beef/chicken/fish. I also find stir frying rather tricky. Also I have no clue how to make a good sauce… still got lots to learn…

Still have 1 more steak and 2 more chicken chops… thought of trying something different with it… like with noodles or something but… really not enough ingredients to get more creative. Also low on budget and shag to do grocery shopping during the crowded weekends.

Hands are itching to play pool tomorrow… and registration for the new tournament format started. Ought to register soon…

I need to stop mind-f*cking myself…

Thanks W for that comment left behind. I have to agree that its just plain irritating when I see myself write a load of nonsensical and pointless description about how I feel. Its like I’ve got regular PMS dammit! I’m just very tempted to delete that post away…

TGIF, and I’ve not used the $100 Takashimaya voucher given to me by my boss since before my lasik surgery. I need a new wallet so I’ll probably use that to get one, and I also just applied for a Citibank account and my first credit card. Pray really hard that I won’t overuse or overspend… I’m getting it because it entitles to rebates off SMRT rides (buses and trains) and my Easilink card auto tops up whenever the value gets too low. Plus I got an account that gets up to 2% interest per annum if there’s a savings increase of min. $1 every month… which is pretty good incentive for me to save more.

Also did some calculations, and realized that I’ll have enough cash to fully pay for a car by the time I’m like 32… provided that I faithfully save a lump sum every month till then. As for whether I will really wanna get one… maybe if my salary increases by another 1/3 can seriously consider. Meeting up with financial planner in a cple of weeks… and torn whether to do own research and investment for my CPF by myself, or engage my planner to do it (involves more charges). I’ve up till end of this year to invest CPF otherwise the government will freeze my funds till it hits a minimum sum.

Sometime ago KM shared with me about treasury bills… and I started wondering if its a criminal offense to use my overdraft facility to buy treasury bills. Because with the extra cash, pretty much allows you take out more funds to generate higher returns… and T-bills seems to be rather stable and consistent growth. I admire KM for all that financial knowledge of markets (he’ll deny that he knows that much) and its spurring me to find out more about how to get that little help and boost from financial sectors to increase personal capital.

But first things first, have to pay back the recent loans from my dad by end of the year… recently he’s been working very very late. And its been going on for like a month non-stop. He even goes back Saturdays and Sundays for like the entire day, and on weekdays he works past 9pm… I’ve never seen my dad work such long hours in my entire life. Just really hope his company hires more people to cope with the new projects they got.

Everyone around me seems to be busy with their own lives… and the good thing about today was my colleague shared with me a passage about life at the start of the day… she had to sit for some test in church… anyway… the passage served a good reminder of how da hell I should use my brain…

If I could Live My Life Over Again

Life is like a box of chocolates. So says Forrest Gump.

How do you view life?

To Forrest Gump, life is like box of chocolates because “you never know what you’re gonna get.” His philosophy of life might have given the chocolate industry a great boost!

How do you view life?

Different ones have different metaphors for it. For some, life is like the sea: wild and restless. For others life is like a flower: beautiful but frail. Some view life as a party: “eat, drink and be merry”. Others view life as a curse to grin and bear with.

To me, life is like a pumpkin.

A story was told of a farmer who went to a county fair with his son. There they saw a most unusual pumpkin. It was the exact size and shape of a two-gallon jug. It won the blue ribbon in a pumpkin competition. Curious, the farmer asked the owner how he got the pumpkin to look like that.

“It was easy,” the owner said, “as soon as it started to grow, I stuck it inside a two-gallon jug. So it came to have the exact size and shape of the two-gallon jug.”

Life is like a pumpkin. Life conforms to what we stick it into. Indeed, how we live matters. Our life conforms to how we live it.

Thus, more important than how we view life is how we live it. (this was what woke me up from the abyss)

Many of us can be quite eloquent on how we view life but God is keen on how we live it. How then do you live life? A poster says: “We don’t determine our future. Rather, we determine our habits; and our habits determine our future”.

What are the habits of life by which we live?

As I reflect on this, I am convinced that we would live wiser if we learn from those who have gone before us. They have the wisdom of hindsight. Hindsight is twent-twenty vision! Here then is a significant hindsight question: “If you can live life over again, what would you do differently?”

… by Rev Edmund Chan

Again… really thankful for these great people that I mingle with everyday… and yes I gotta stop habitually letting my brain soak up unnecessary neurotic crap.

On a different note, I’ve set a personal record of eating Subway… 4 days in a row. *faint* Dunno why I’m suddenly addicted to it.

The man… really doesn’t get it…

 To W and RN: You know me too well… u don’t have to read it… same goes for other readers…

I hate whining and complaining… its the last thing I want to do in life. Whining and complaining just doesn’t lead to anything… and I only get somewhere if I take action to invoke changes… so that I will not be tempted to whine and complain. Especially to other people.

I’ve been more focused at work, and forced myself not to let my emotions stray away. School has started, and I’m taking 3 subjects this year. Just went for 2 lessons and felt optimistic about the coming year. I’ve been trying not to be too distracted by things like when I’m going to meet that special someone, what I should do the coming weekend, who I should go out with this week… I just wanted to be alone… but I think everyone seems to be doing their own thing… and its the time where I gotta do my own thing… be more productive and waste less energy…

However, after reading LP’s entry, couldn’t help but realize that I am social being too. And yes we all need love. But it doesn’t seem like its the right time for me to experience it… loneliness did creep up on me for the past couple of weeks. I read Sumiko Tan’s article on the Sunday Times, in which she said that a woman still needs a partner (a man) to be complete. It’s funny… because I always get the idea that local women can be hard to please, or rather, hard to impress… but in the article, women can’t live a full life without someone to be there by their side… well… I wonder why? probably because all the nice men women meet are either already married, engaged, gay or refuse to tie any knot. The thing that upsets me is that I think I’m a nice man, but I’m neither married, engaged, gay nor refusing to tie the knot… so… that just indirectly means that I’m not such a nice man after all… well… now I’ve just made it personal. I wonder why women can’t live a full life without a companion, and I figured… well… they can’t stand people not listening to them, so its probably worse if there isn’t anyone around in the first place. At times… I really wonder whether my lady friends really enjoy spending time with me… perhaps they do… but on a scale of 1 to 10? I’ll bet maybe the truth will hurt… but really… why do I waste time bothering about that…

I don’t feel that confident about myself nowadays either. My closest friends would know that I wouldn’t blame anyone but myself for it… after all… its never really about other people. If we were to blame everything externally, there’d never be a way to solve our problems if we never admit responsibility for them. That’s why I’ve been trying to work harder, and trying to focus on the things that matter…

As a man, living in this modern and cosmopolitan society, where men and women share equal rights and equal opportunity… I can’t help but feel that its being tipped towards the ladies… cos “The Men Don’t Get It”… and I have to admit that I don’t get it… and the women always usually do. W, RN, ZY, SW, LS, SL, ZH,  are just so wise… in realizing that… I feel priviledged, and at the same time inferior. I can’t remember the occasions where I’ve made differences in their lives… although they have made such a huge difference in mine.

Even with my ex… I felt inferior from the start… so yeah that’s my problem. What’s the solution? Just don’t feel that way? Learn more and become wiser? I’m kinda trying to do both here… not to impress anyone, but just to make sure I don’t get sucked down by my inferiority complex. Do I need more compliments? Do I need more encouragement? If its out of pity I’d rather not… I don’t wanna be another weak man who doesn’t have any balls. But why seek pride at this point of time… is not humility a better option? well… this isn’t about humility, its about inferiority…

Do I seek truth and wisdom just to find myself a way out of my inferiority? Perhaps that’s true… perhaps that’s what makes me who I am. Its sad… cos then, I’d have lived a life out of fear… than that of purpose and passion. I know what it means to live as a good example… and I am just plain saddened, that I’ve not made big differences in other people’s lives till today… cos if I did… I’d probably have more friends.

In short, I just don’t get it. And I think that by being alone, I might feel less inferior… cos I wouldn’t have to listen to my lady friends “talk sense” into me… it’ll just re-assure the point that I’m making… that I’m a man who’s not destined to be as steady as a rock yet… despite being spurred to work harder and to improve… I wonder if any person, let alone a woman, be touched and spurred by what I do… fark lah… like i did anything that will spur pple on in the first place…

You can give without love, but you can never love without giving. I really want to give… but no one seems to want/need what I have to give… everyone seems to know what to do now…

Not even God needs me quite frankly… why would God ever need anyone? its the people who need God and not the other way round… Am I yearning to be needed by others? I’m in complete denial of that… maybe because of my male ego and stubborness to yield to the fact that I’m an emotional being and thus need a little TLC from a special someone.

Do I need a woman to make me complete? At this moment yeah I do… but that’s not how it works I guess… after all… for women today, love alone is not enough to make them feel secure. At times, its confusing as to whether women need love, or do they just need a man.

I. really. don’t. get. it.

Ah whatever… I’m just another single guy who doesn’t have a clue about anything. Only know that I’m just farking not good enough.

You have to be thankful…

For everything that you’ve got… and use whatever you have wisely. I’m thankful that lotsa people are writing about Dave Teo and have much better stuff written down on their blogs… I realize that I sound like some bimbotic man after reading through the previous entry again.

I just spaced out this afternoon and I couldn’t do much at work… and fatigue just crept up. Guess I better sleep earlier today to have a good end to the week tomorrow. B’s dad was rushed to the hospital 2 weeks ago for acute appendicitis. Such cases are really rare and his condition had to be quite complicated judging that he’s still kept under observation at SGH. Just hope he gets stronger and fights off the infection and get well soon. Its yet another reminder to be thankful for the good health you’re having.

Was reading Fortune magazine for the first time and I just realized I’ve been missing a lot of news and general knowledge about what’s going on globally… and its somewhat triggered sparks of interest in finding out what makes the world go round in this era. Of course… don’t always believe what you read in the media. There’re always hints of half truths.

Haven’t exactly planned what to do this weekend, but it probably won’t involve spending much $$$ as I realized that I overspent yet again for the first cple of weeks since I got my pay. Think I’ll probably just go cycling somewhere, still can’t go for swim as its not been a mth since my lasik yet… hmm… maybe just watch a few dvds… oh…. maybe can do a little cooking at home if there’s some stuff… hehehe… anyone wanna try? 

And Singapore’s Goondu of the Year is… ahem…

Dave Teo’s arrest for bringing a fireman… oops I mean firearm… to ORCHARD ROAD! How happening can Singapore get man? *faint* plus he gets his buddy arrested too…

I’m sure most of you guys and gals have read the headlines… and thought how stupid can this fella be… having just 1 month till ORD, and had to book out of camp just because of some relationship problem? Ahem not to forget… sneaked out with SAF’s property which happened to be A LOADED MACHINE GUN!!!!… meant for just friggin guard duty… Just what da blardy fark was he thinking man… allo just 1 mth till ORD wanna pull stunt… A serious contender against Steven Lim for Singapore’s Goondu of the Year. Boy I hope this entry doesn’t get “tomorrowed” or “stomped”. Edited this like more than 4 times so that it doesn’t have enough spice to get featured…

But it really doesn’t matter what I think or believe… things are still gonna move on… things will change and we all make mistakes regardless of how big they are… they do happen. And I really don’t know why I seem to be defending this guy but… everyone does deserve a chance right? But that really doesn’t mean that this guy had a good reason for bring firearms out of the authorized area… well… but what if there really were terrorists hanging out at Orchard Road… we’d have a young valiant AWOL Rambotan with a SAR ready to put ‘em out in a jiffy wouldn’t we? And Dave would become zero to hero…

*flock of crows flying past…. 

But seriously… gotta feel for the family and whatever he’s going through at the moment. Definitely ought have realized how incredibly silly he was… might even go for an insanity plea? Reminds me of that undergrad who has a compulsive mental sickness for stealing and shoplifting. Anyway… this guy just really found himself in deep shit. I think this has to be one of the most expensive lessons for anyone to learn on the planet. Need I say not worth it?

Which reminds me… if you’ve watched a documentary of the lives of the citizens in North Korea, this is nothing compared to what the North Koreans go through. Yes I’m seriously digressing here but this just struck me so hard. The people there are subjected to the purest form of dictatorship… and there, you can’t even tell the difference whether citizens live out of pure fear, or pure love and respect for their country’s leader. No one is allowed freely out of the country, and whoever does without the government’s permission faces immediate death, and if they do eventually escape from North Korea, their relatives get arrested and executed! There was a young man who managed to escape to South Korea, and when being interviewed and asked about what happened to his family, he declined to comment. Can you imagine how inhumane that is… you pay the price of your family’s life for your freedom. And all the wealth of the country goes to the government… and its just unbelievable that at this era there’s still such things going on.

Thank God this isn’t North Korea. 

Quite glad that I’ve fully recovered from cold and phlegm… and thanks to W, M, B, RN, for making life less sick than it already is… and my exam results were out yesterday. Passed 2 out of 3 papers… so I’m left with 5 more papers to sit for and I’m deciding to take it slow… just take 2 papers this year and see if possible to score well than flunk all 5 at one shot.

I will be going to school alone now that most of my uni friends have already graduated or deferred their studies… so that means I’m probably gonna make new friends this semester. Rather looking forward to sorta fresh start.

Managed to get back to running today, after a 1 week break due to being sick last week. Timing was bad but perspired a ton, so felt really refreshed and ready to take on the rest of the week. Probably gotta do some financial planning as I’m planning to open a new bank account with OCBC or Citibank (still deciding)…

Also decided to take a break from church for awhile. Starting to doubt that this church is where I should be, and I thought of looking to go somewhere else. Shift of priorities in my life choices, also figured that if I wasn’t moving along with the church’s vision, I’m probably just making the pple in there continue to question why I’m not as committed as they’d hope… can’t really get along well with the cell groups either… but I’m not severing my relationship with God either… cos no matter how I try I know it can never be done… I guess I’m too stubborn with how I want to go about my relationship with God that hardly anyone can actually reach out to change me.

Anyway… after running and panting and heart racing, I was reminded that it really doesn’t matter what you think or believe… its what you do with it in real life that really matters.

Bedtime… zzzzzz….