I need to stop mind-f*cking myself…

Thanks W for that comment left behind. I have to agree that its just plain irritating when I see myself write a load of nonsensical and pointless description about how I feel. Its like I’ve got regular PMS dammit! I’m just very tempted to delete that post away…

TGIF, and I’ve not used the $100 Takashimaya voucher given to me by my boss since before my lasik surgery. I need a new wallet so I’ll probably use that to get one, and I also just applied for a Citibank account and my first credit card. Pray really hard that I won’t overuse or overspend… I’m getting it because it entitles to rebates off SMRT rides (buses and trains) and my Easilink card auto tops up whenever the value gets too low. Plus I got an account that gets up to 2% interest per annum if there’s a savings increase of min. $1 every month… which is pretty good incentive for me to save more.

Also did some calculations, and realized that I’ll have enough cash to fully pay for a car by the time I’m like 32… provided that I faithfully save a lump sum every month till then. As for whether I will really wanna get one… maybe if my salary increases by another 1/3 can seriously consider. Meeting up with financial planner in a cple of weeks… and torn whether to do own research and investment for my CPF by myself, or engage my planner to do it (involves more charges). I’ve up till end of this year to invest CPF otherwise the government will freeze my funds till it hits a minimum sum.

Sometime ago KM shared with me about treasury bills… and I started wondering if its a criminal offense to use my overdraft facility to buy treasury bills. Because with the extra cash, pretty much allows you take out more funds to generate higher returns… and T-bills seems to be rather stable and consistent growth. I admire KM for all that financial knowledge of markets (he’ll deny that he knows that much) and its spurring me to find out more about how to get that little help and boost from financial sectors to increase personal capital.

But first things first, have to pay back the recent loans from my dad by end of the year… recently he’s been working very very late. And its been going on for like a month non-stop. He even goes back Saturdays and Sundays for like the entire day, and on weekdays he works past 9pm… I’ve never seen my dad work such long hours in my entire life. Just really hope his company hires more people to cope with the new projects they got.

Everyone around me seems to be busy with their own lives… and the good thing about today was my colleague shared with me a passage about life at the start of the day… she had to sit for some test in church… anyway… the passage served a good reminder of how da hell I should use my brain…

If I could Live My Life Over Again

Life is like a box of chocolates. So says Forrest Gump.

How do you view life?

To Forrest Gump, life is like box of chocolates because “you never know what you’re gonna get.” His philosophy of life might have given the chocolate industry a great boost!

How do you view life?

Different ones have different metaphors for it. For some, life is like the sea: wild and restless. For others life is like a flower: beautiful but frail. Some view life as a party: “eat, drink and be merry”. Others view life as a curse to grin and bear with.

To me, life is like a pumpkin.

A story was told of a farmer who went to a county fair with his son. There they saw a most unusual pumpkin. It was the exact size and shape of a two-gallon jug. It won the blue ribbon in a pumpkin competition. Curious, the farmer asked the owner how he got the pumpkin to look like that.

“It was easy,” the owner said, “as soon as it started to grow, I stuck it inside a two-gallon jug. So it came to have the exact size and shape of the two-gallon jug.”

Life is like a pumpkin. Life conforms to what we stick it into. Indeed, how we live matters. Our life conforms to how we live it.

Thus, more important than how we view life is how we live it. (this was what woke me up from the abyss)

Many of us can be quite eloquent on how we view life but God is keen on how we live it. How then do you live life? A poster says: “We don’t determine our future. Rather, we determine our habits; and our habits determine our future”.

What are the habits of life by which we live?

As I reflect on this, I am convinced that we would live wiser if we learn from those who have gone before us. They have the wisdom of hindsight. Hindsight is twent-twenty vision! Here then is a significant hindsight question: “If you can live life over again, what would you do differently?”

… by Rev Edmund Chan

Again… really thankful for these great people that I mingle with everyday… and yes I gotta stop habitually letting my brain soak up unnecessary neurotic crap.

On a different note, I’ve set a personal record of eating Subway… 4 days in a row. *faint* Dunno why I’m suddenly addicted to it.